things happen for a reason...

I still didnt find out why did I feel the way I did yesterday. So frustrated, so stressed out and overruled by the vawe of emotions. Is it because I hate when I see that things can be done faster and easier then they actually are? Or is it because I am so unflexible to even a small change of my plans?
There is always a reason why things happen but I cant see it so far. Is the reason that I learn how frustrated it is to fix visa? how horrible one can feel in order to travel somewhere? is the reason that I should be happy that as an inhabitant of my country I dont need to go through this procedure (travels in Europe)? Is the reason for me that I managed to get up early in the morning, travel for 100km, found my way, travel back and work for some hours on the university paper? Or maybe it is not me who is supposed to learn from this. Or maybe I will see the reason later on.

the only person who can make you happy is you...

the saying that I am trying to dig in head to take it always with me. but I am also trying to follow that saying. I am trying to find every day a thing (at least one) that makes me happy. Sometimes its hard sometimes not. for a creative person as I am it is cool cause every day it is something different that makes me happy. today it was talk with old friend of mine and her offer to do me a favour (I allowed myself to be happy about it even though nothing is fixed). very cool feeling. then it was that I bought the colorfull paper for my next creative hand made project (super much looking forward). then it was also the discovery that my gym visits already paid off and I feel much much better.

So did you make yourself happy today?

voting for the best behavior

The other day I was in our supermarket to buy food.
I was standing half step and a bit right behind the person in front of me, calling (for 30 seconds or so). Right when I´ve finished the person on the cash was giving to the person in front of me the table that this cashier is closing I reached out my hand for that sign but the person in front of me put it on the belt (The woman who was with him told him to give me the sign but he explain himself that since I have full hands he will put it on the belt, nice gesture, no?). so we wait. When the time came to put my things on the belt the man at the desk (age round 20+) started to talk with me (well I dont consider this the proper way how to talk to the customer but ok).
This cash is closing.
OK but I was already here.
No, you werent
Excuse me I was. (the men in front of me admit, yes yes she was!)
Dear madam, i am not blind. you werent. You were not standing in the line, you were calling! said he with the such cheeky voice that I lost my words.
I just breath and consider what to do? at that point I could only hiss a bit and I just left to his colleague.

So I am asking what was the best behaviour to do? Start to argue that even the person I was standing BEHIND understood that I am queuing there?
Beeing rude, scream, throw things on him?
Go to his boss and tell that I felt very bad that I dont think I did something wrong and that I dont appreciate this kind of behaviour from their workers?
Leave my purchase there on the belt and leave?
Or just left dont say anything to him as I did?

Which choice would help to make a world better place?

The voting starts now !

So this was Christmas....

So this is Christmas... John Lennon is singing in one of his hits. But I questioned myself Is this really Christmas? Shouldn´t it be about love, joy, harmony and peace? Why is someone giving me disrespect, pain and tears? (ok, it was me crying in the end) But why is someone doing that? I made an effort to end the starting fight, to postpone it for the next morning hoping to continue with “cold heads” but since it didn't work out I choose the other way. Actually it was the first time I ended up the fight the way I hate it. With cheesy ironic comment just to stop it because I decided (actually it was a bit pre-new year resolution) that I will make myself happy. And one way how to do it is to avoid such situation. No, don't think that I am running from the battle, it is more the strategy you use when you are allergic to some fruit. You don't eat it, don't smell it, don't buy it. And I will just avoid his presence, contact, company. I am not happy about this solution of the situation since I know it is not the right one. In the movie, you would talk, write a letter or became a famous pop start and made the coolest hit out of it just so the other person would know. The regrets and request of forgiveness would follow but I think my life is not such a movie.
I would really wish to understand the behaviour of others. What it is that makes them to behave the way they do. Maybe one day I will get to know that, maybe it is even more obvious than I´ve ever though but since then I will try to accept his bubbly personality and I will not allow him to stop me from being happy.

Everyone is fighting the best way one can

...?...

Can The love be vanished by everyday problems?

How not to forget to celebrate the love everyday?

How to be satisfied even when you dont have everything you wanted?

wrong way

When I used to play the Pc games where you have to drive a car I was very often going wrong way. Nowadays I have the feeling that my country is going this way and I am looking for a big sign saying “wrong way” that I could put in front of their faces.
Just two examples (I am not mentioning the economical “reforms”, the expected taxation level increasing or the next years state budget) that on the first glance not so significant situations but in my opinion dangerous in a principle:
1. In Slovakia you can buy bubble maker toy for boys and for girls... eeee why do we need to distinguish between sex/gender here??
2. In many countries (Balkan, Scandinavia) they don’t synchronize movies, series nothing. You can find it in the original language with subtitles. Perfect and cheap solution for people to learn language and for tourists too. (not ok for small children or for people who cant read or as my mother says for women who are cooking while listening TV). Not in Slovakia. We doubt everything (even from Czech) and we have the LAW that everything has to be in Slovak. Reason is to protect Slovak language...
(my ironic comments didnt go through here :D)

Compliment or something like that

I met her yesterday after one year we havent seen each other.
She: "I almost didnt recognize you. You look so beautiful."
ehm :D

Photomarathon 2009

Together with Lukas we took part at third Photomarathon in Bratislava and this is our contribution (unfortunately I didnt get the conditions right so I dont think we will win but stil we liked it :D all pictures you can see here

I just took one - my favourite called lucid dream :D

Active is educating workers at Slovak post

I still hesitate if I should use the services of the ex "state" companies in Slovakia. I somehow still have feeling that I bother those people who are working there but on the other hand I usualy go there, because they are cheaper.
So I decided to send the new issue of the Transit via "old" Slovak Post. After the first experience I was somehow expecting that the miss working there will have some problems with the state Faroe Islands (but I can understand I also had it). So I went there and put an envelope in front of her.
She: I suggest to send it with First class otherwise it can take one month to ship it to Iceland
Me: Excuse me I want to send it to Faroe Islands not to Iceland
She: aha, sorry. So it will be uff 27 eur.
(just so you know, Slovak post has 3 country categories when it comes to prices- Czech republic, Europe and Other world and I somehow assumed that 27 euro is too much).
Me: Hm, sorry but Faroe islands are still in Europe.
She: Really? I never heard of it, then it is 13 euro.
Me (thinking, very ironicaly): ah that´s difference of "just"14 euro.

Why some people think that it is a shame to ask....

statement from lifestyle magazine

.... everyone has the opportunity to change the world...

vivien westwood

leaving...

There is a milion reason why I love Sweden.... but one in particular
I changed here... in a good way

thanks to everyone who made it possible...

thoughts on the way to prekistolen

- Do not hurry to your goal you might miss something on the way. The way itself is important.

- the easier looking way might not be that easy in the end

- do not follow others even though they look like they know what they are doing

- the biggest stone isn´t necessary the most stabile
- the same way doesn´t mean the same experience

- the more tougher way to the goal, the more you appreciate the goal

- don´t let others to set your tempo

- sometimes the stone on your way have other purpose than to stop you

the taste of love

Q: What is the best thing on this vacation?
Him: In my opinion the best and most beautiful thing on this place is the crunchy bottom of my girlfriend :D

chuchu

my head - the Qstion maker...

You had certain experience and when your friends face the same situation you want to protect them. But is it really the same situation?
Is it neccesary for them to fall in order to find out?
But how can anyone be sure it will have the same pattern? and that s/he is right?
How to achieve equality in a relationship? When it is about big love and when about owning someone?
Can you have your own time and dont feel ditching on her/him?
How much support should one partner give to another?
What everything you can tolerate and accept?
Is there an equal attention to partners needs and wills all the time... or ...ever?
Can the partners rise while supporting the other partner?

lets see what Paoblo Coelho has to say to this :D

thankfull...for a change :D

I am thankfull

Thankfull for my family that they are willing to carry my 14kg bag, be awake at 2 a.m. just to help me and my friends
I am thankfull to my friends who behave like I had never gone and miss me !
I am thankfull for my boss who gives me fewers to my wings and let me learn much more than I have expected.
I am thankfull to my bf for being tolerant - to my work, passion, moods and every side of myself.
I am thankfull for the tears of joy and sadness that went through my face.
I am thankfull for the wonderfull moments that I´ve gone through in the past year!

missing...

his fingers, smile and smell
the common minutes we spend
missing the part of me when we´re together
missing...

myself in Content matters

I contributed, finally.
After 3 month of the campaing I decided to send my story. Content matters campaing is cool it has the aim to show the other side of alcohol. I would never think that writing a story that i hide for such a long time in my heart can bring so much emotion and also lighteness.

I do believe everyone of us has something to say to this topic- so share!

Cause I believe that there is at least one person whom your contribution will help - at least yourself.

Can youth contribute to "adult" topics?

Sometimes I ask myself this question too.
My first intention is to scream YES of course. Youth is the future. Youth is the hope.
But does youth have enough space in society, in every day life? Do we show them enough patience to learn and by that show us what are they capable to do?
Youth needs to want to participate in everyday life.
But then I start to hesitate - do they really want to? I worked with group of youth that consider themselves not educated/clever enough to have the right to vote. They are not interested in politics and they really believe they are JUST youth. I am hitting the bells and screaming WAKE UP! Adults, youth is the part of society - the inspirative and powerfull part.
For all those who dont believe I have a proof.
I took part on a conference - "Get to know your finances".
Conference where secondary schools girls and boys took part, contributes along with their teachers and professionals. They were talking about money, savings, how to solve the pensions funds. In the age of 17! That was amazing. And I can really tell that they know what they were talking about. And it prooved that definitely youth belongs to the society.
No one should ever question that.
just give wind to their wings and they will fly!

please follow my inspiration...

I wrote it already some times here how much I admire Kristinka. And once again she found her way to start my mind working. Her almost latest entry (read here). And she is right. Parent´s attitude towards alcohol is part of the attitude that their children are "building". By their children I also mean yours!

Parents should never offer alcohol to children. They should create alcohol free home for them. Think about it if you will next time offer alcohol to anyone. Think about how s/he can feel.

Later today her entry started very nice conversation with my sweetest boyfriend. And it lead to the question What is worse - alcohol or drugs. And there the moment happend. Eventhough I am in the sober movement for 8 years. The first intention for my was to answer drugs. But are they really? When an abstinent (former alcoholic) fought his/her addiction is it easy for him to re-join the society? Society with all the ads in TV, all the alcohol in shops and bars. All the alcohol on parties etc. etc. etc.?

So what is really more dangerous?

And off the topic I made fullkorn hallon pancakes at the end.

...dream come true..?..

Few months ago my lovely kiksun had a question on her blog. What should u do when all your dreams come true? And now I am thinking about the same - what should I do when I found someone I was looking for?
someone who respects me, who turns his life up side down just to be with me and by that he managed to turn mine...
Someone who loves ME for my flaws (as Beyoncee is singing).
Someone who is helping me and forcing at the sametime to challange myslef and do things I was afraid to do.
Someone who is making me a better person because I wanna him to be proud of me.
Someone who is making me cry because I cant believe that I am having such him.
Someone who is everything I´ve ever wanted...and I mean everything..

Somene like him.. NO... exactly him.